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It feels like a derangement

Updated: Oct 16, 2018

The menopause, depression and me.

I've written about the menopause and depression and me, for the New York Review of Books. It took months to write, for a reason I explain in the piece, but I'm so glad that Matt Seaton, the editor of the NYR Daily, commissioned me many months ago. If he hadn't, I'd probably never have written about it. Here is the piece on the NYR Daily site. It was republished and slightly edited as a Guardian Longread: that version is here.

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Mary Vogel
Mary Vogel
Sep 10, 2019

Thank you for putting this out there. I’m so tired of seeing only information about hot flashes! I recently had to stop HRT because of breast cancer and I’m more afraid of being without my hormones than I am of the cancer.


This is such an accurate piece on what some women go through with the menopause.

I am sitting on the sofa unable to move.

It’s my 7th day in hell!

This is a bad bad day !

Seems to be I have not many good days lately.

Have been on HRT for 4 months now and not getting any better, although not to long after I first went on them I had a good 10 days ! I felt like I was back , unfortunately the fall came even harder!

Think my dose is far to low femoston-conti 1mg/5mg tablet form (which I know in your article you say is bad in tablet form)

Think I need a much higher…


Justine Emmett
Justine Emmett
Dec 29, 2018

Thank you for writing such a perfect description of menopause and depression. I'm having a bad week so to read your story made me remember my life is not all bad just my thinking is off! Thank you, thank you, thank you x

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